Yep, that's the sound of a quilt that's breaking my heart.
On Friday afternoon the sun was shining gloriously so I popped out to take a better picture of the quilt top (though it was a little windy)
and also a picture of the back
I don't normally piece backs for my quilts but I did for this one. And, at that stage Friday afternoon this quilt was breaking my heart because I wanted to keep it. I loved every little piece of fabric and every great big splash of Ruby colour on that backing, and had a little sigh in acknowledgement that this quilt will not be mine.
Then, I took it off the line and drove myself crazy trying to baste the quilt so that the front and back would be aligned straight. In the spirit of honesty, while I'd like to tell you I succeeded, I can't. That back was on again and off again and I just really struggled to get it right. It ended up being as good as I could get it and it's not too bad, but in my head I can't help thinking that it's not good enough.
Friday night and yesterday I had a go at quilting this baby and feel like I'm breaking my heart over it even more. It just didn't go smoothly and I think that I have kind of wobbled under the pressure of having to have this finished. There is barely a single straight line in this quilting and I really wonder at myself - don't I know better than this? Can't I do better than this? And why, when it matters so much, is this one of the worst quilting jobs I have ever done?
My one remaining hope is that after I get all those mosaic quilting ends taken care of and the binding on, a good wash and dry will disguise this ghastly quilting. My report card on this one should definitely read "Could do better."
Oh Ruby, forgive me!